To compensate the amount of posts released 3 weeks ago, I've been (once more) absent for these last days. Ok, weeks. I've been busy (studying...). The truth is that, busy or not, I don't have that much to say right now and I'm simply living my life, listening to my music and feeding my dreams of becoming a member of JSD (if you're not Portuguese you won't understand and, I'm sorry to say, I don't feel like explaining). Yesterday I would be offended if anyone questioned my happiness but now the hysteria is gone. Maybe I'm just tired, but the truth is that there are so many little things to worry about right now that I'm not able to keep myself above all the daily trouble. So many annoying little things, about the people you see everyday, about the people you wish you saw everyday, about this girl who's really getting on your nerves and that boy you can never catch. You just try to become better and better, but sometimes the process is too slow! And, even if you try to forget it, for yourself and for the others, you can't. It's real and it's there. I think I've mentioned it here before, but I still doubt I've got my karma and "happiness tower" (that was the expression I used here) back. I don't feel as confident and loved as I used to. But I'll get over it. It just that it's taking too much time.
P.S - Tomorrow I'll be smiling as I turn my face to the sun, as I do everyday (when it's sunny, at least). I'm not sad (in fact, I am happy), I'm just remembering the background of my happiness (and sharing it with you, apparently).
yours,
millou
