Introspective evening

The last days have been quite meditative for me, and I wanted to share with you just a little thing I've noticed about people (in fact, about me, but I don't think it is a rare phenomenon) - we see so clearly what others should do, how others should act and behave, but when we're involved, everything gets much more confusing.

I think we're afraid of realizing we're not as good as we like to think we are. We want to keep that mask of perfection and are afraid of taking a deep, closer look, that would show off its numerous flaws. It is the easiest thing to do - at least at that moment - but it's not the best option. Reality doesn't leave just because we look away and not wanting to face it only makes things worse - you have to know what you are if you want to get any better.

yours,

millou

30 Seconds to Mars - Closer to the Edge

Hi there :D

I wanted to share with you a video that you have probably already seen - but I really have to mention it, because it is absolutely amazing. It is the video clip of Closer to the Edge, by 30 Seconds to Mars, my eternally beloved band :)
This song is from their last album, This is War, and has (like the whole album) an amazing, contagious power and energy.

Visit this web page for more info about 30STM :D

There you have: 30 Seconds to Mars - Closer to the Edge. Lyrics below. Enjoy!!

Lyrics:
I remember one moment, I tried to forget
I lost myself, is it better not said
Now I'm closer to the edge

It was a thousand to one
And a million to two
Time to go down in flames and I'm taking you
Closer to the edge

No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
NO NO NO NO

Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free
The birth of a song and the death of a dream
Closer to the edge

This never ending story
Paid for with pride and fate
We all fall short of glory
LOST IN OURSELVES

No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
NO NO NO NO

NO NO NO NO
I will never forget
NO NO
I will never regret
NO NO
I WILL LIVE MY LIFE
(x2)

No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
NO NO NO NO
(x2)

Closer to the edge
Closer to the edge
NO NO NO NO
(x2)

Closer to the edge

Funerals and last words

Assuming we don't believe in after death life, we can say funerals don't really mean anything to the dead ones, only to the ones who still live and care for them. However, I suppose everyone has a wish about the future of their body after they're gone.
I've been listening to a song I've discovered via Twitter (a crap song, but who cares...?) that said something like "If I die young burn me at dawn and send me away with the words of a love song". I, as all teens, usually think of my death as an event taking place in dozens of years, and rarely think "If I died tomorrow, how would I spend this day?" or "What would my perfect funeral be like?".

So, if I die before I change my mind, here are my instructions:
Burn me and spread my ashes in the wind, at dawn, on a green meadow with no trees, and play Muse's Starlight REALLY loud. :D

That would be my definition of the perfect funeral.
About the way I would spend my last day... That's up to me to find out and put into practice. Those words that really have to be said to that special someone, that dream hunting you since your were old enough to think, that kind of stuff we all know and none (pardon, very few) of us really does while living.

yours,
millou

P.S - No, I was NOT diagnosed with cancer. Don't worry :P

"Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared"

Eddie Rickenbacker

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

It was only yesterday I finally saw Eclipse!

I think I liked it. It focuses Bella's division between Edward and Jacob, but not with that dramatic and disgusting tone of New Moon - no suicide attempts, no adrenaline rushes, just her pure feelings. In both Twilight and New Moon I HATED Jacob! He's there only to disturb Bella and Edward's peaceful love...! Now, after watching Eclipse, I somehow understand him. He likes Bella and she makes him hope for something in New Moon (stupid girl, damn!) - it's only natural that he fights for it.

About Bella... Hmm, I must say I hate that girl since the beginning. She has that suffering look that always annoys me to death. She is with the guy she loves, and he loves her back! Why on Earth isn't she jumping of joy?? Incomprehensible.

However, considering that final speech in Eclipse (in which she admits she never felt like she belonged somewhere before meeting the Cullens and the vampire world) I have to like her a little bit more. That speech is, in my opinion, the best of the Twilight Saga essence: the meeting of two people who are completely out of that insane human world.

There's still Edward Cullen to talk about... He is, predictably, my favorite character since the very beginning (and my second favorite would be Alice - and third Carlisle or Emmet, not sure). I mean, he's so cute, deep, disturbed, odd... He's a perfect tormented vampire.

The Cullens are also adorable. I love all that eccentricity of being a vampire - the baseball games, the hunts, Alice's visions, Edward's mind-reading powers... They are the perfect family. All so interesting (ok, except Rosalie), all so united but, still, all so individual and unique. Love the Cullens!

Just to finish... I must say this whole Twilight Saga thing is, sometimes, taken too far. New Moon was completely unnecessary and ridiculous, focusing not the good part of the story (as I previously said, the vampire world and it's differences from human world), but the cheap and theatrical drama in the Edward-Bella-Jacob situation. Also, I believe that there was no need for much more than just Twilight. When you insist too much in something, no matter how good it is, it always ends up becoming monotonous. The story should have been made to be shorter. Keeping the intrigues and vampire/wolf details, of course, but shorter.

yours,

millou

Chips psycology

I had an epiphany today, in the middle of a conversation involving chips. Just read it carefully, it may actually make some sense...

So, a family goes shopping - they buy some chips. They all want to eat them; but no one wants to be the first to do it. No one wants to show the inability to resist the golden temptation. They prefer to wait until someone else makes the first move, and then... attack!

We could simply forget that we're not supposed to eat chips and, well, do it with a peaceful conscience. But we don't. We feel guilty for being human, for desiring what we shouldn't desire. We want to eat those chips - but we know we shouldn't. However, we do it anyway. But, instead of admitting we can't resist temptation, we try to manage some scheme to save our appearances - we wait for the others to do the first move. That way we won't look as bad as if we were the first ones to eat those chips.

People fake. People pretend. And, most of all, people fake and people pretend to THEMSELVES. That's worse than lying - that's self-delusion. Lying to yourself.

My advice (and, by that, I mean: my self goal) is - if you want the chips, eat them. Admit it, face who you are - a greedy beast who, like everyone on Earth, just loooooves chips!

Post dedicated to all the hypocrites around the world (myself included)

yours,
millou

Perfect news :D

I was so excited that I first wrote this post in Portuguese :D Anyway, I've translated it, don't worry, beloved readers.

Who?
30 Seconds to Mars.

When?
December 16.

Where?
Lisbon.

What?
A show. A live performance. Something... perfect.

The exact details of «where» remain unknown, but... it's in Lisbon, and that's all I need to know for now :D
Well, I hope to see you there, dear and beloved bloggers...!!


Oh... and if you want to know more about the band visit this link or, if you want to stare at Jared Leto's beauty, visit this one. Enjoy and take care.

yours,
millou